Crossroads of Life

When trying becomes a staple

And you get stuck 

Stuck in the wheel of tries 

Do you then joyously try again?

Or would you go back and live 

Live as a kid

Taking life as it comes

Living life forgetting the adjacent past

The vision of the future though

Can you let it go? 

You’ve lived this moment

Lived it in anticipation, envisioned it 

Worked hard to turn it to a reality 

You can almost taste it

But what if?

What if there are failures awaiting

A magnitude of them

Do you waste your life then?

Or do you move on

Move on to other things

Open a door to a different reality

Find a different adventure

A different motivation

Or pickup your past desires

The ones that knocked your door

When you were still a kid

Living those real life fantasies 

And turn that into a reality?

You stand yet again

In the crossroads to pick

Stuck between what’s expected 

And perhaps the right way

Or to pick a new dream

That’s yet to materialize 

Which way do you go then

Is it the path dictated by fear?

Or the one that lacks destination?

When life becomes a staple

And you get stuck

Do you pick the expected?

A safer life that is

Or do you go all in

Towards a new dream? 

A dream that’s yet to come!

Feelings

कुनै दिन म यस्तो गीत गाउछु,
मनका सबै चीज तिमीलाई सुनाउछु,
मेरो यो रिदयमा भएका कुराहरु,
तिमीलाई बिस्तारै बिस्तारै भन्छु ।

मुटुको त्यो धड्कनले तिम्रो नाम लिदा,
उम्रेका काडाले महसुस गर्छु,
आँखा मेरा यी त्येसै लोलाउछन्,
सम्झी तिमीलाई क्षण रोमन्चक बनाउछन् ।

कुनै दिन म यस्तो गीत गाउछु,
मनका सबै चीज तिमीलाई सुनाउछु ।

ति शब्दहरु छन कर्णप्रिय साह्रै,
डुबी तिनैमा पवित्र म हुन्छु ,
लजाउदै जब तिमी मुस्काउछौ त्यसरी,
हर्शले मन यो उजागर गराउछेउ ।

उत्तेजित मनलाई झन घायल  बनाउछेउ,
जब करके हेराइले परेली झिम्काउछेउ,
वोठको जादुको कुरै नगरौ,
मीठो स्पर्शको त्रिष्णा जगाउछेउ ।

कुनै दिन म यस्तो गीत गाउछु,
मनका सबै चीज तिमीलाई सुनाउछु,
मेरो यो रिदयमा भएका कुराहरु,
तिमीलाई बिस्तारै बिस्तारै भन्छु ।

Life

My life is a little different than yours
My confidence gets the stage to lure
I'm always a winner, and I'm really really sure
People in life come and go, I'm sure I can find some more
Why would you cry, when the world is to adore

Life is made of time & when busy, I get it to rhyme
I shine with the sun, dance with the dawn and sometimes sleep in the lawn
I make my life and steer it around
Predict the probabilities and lay it on the ground
 Choose the best ones & rhyme it all along
I move with the vibration of my own song :)

you

I blame your words for my pretty imagination
They are to blame for the plans I make
I blame your voice for your prolonged concentration
They are to blame for the goosebumps that shake
But I don't blame you at all
You create the sensations
And emotions that flow me along
You create the inner vibrations
And my heart sings a song
I find my heart, that longs your company
I love talking to you, create a new destiny
Contrastify me, I wish to see them colors
Intensify me, I wanna reach those levels
Paint my imaginations with your words
Sing the song of my heart, with your voice
Take me to that imagination land
Where it's just the two of us
Let us create such a reality
Where we both win the toss.

Punctual Interview

I wrote this on my interview in LA GEAR UP Summer Counselor. They called me at 10. I had an exam @ 9:30. I rushed to be there at 10. But my interview started at almost 11:30.

Was supposed be in @ 10.
I'm still outside in vain
After I finished my Exam,
It suddenly began to rain
Little droplets on my shirt,
Are not there anymore
I feel like goin out in the rain,
Instead of waitin here in vain
Been sittin down now for a while,
My back is now in pain
Wasted my exam time
without a single gain.
I thought I got here rite in time,
Was the first in chain.
The traffic dont move anymore ...
Think I shud change the lane ??
No ! I'm not givin up yet !!
My life's not @ Set !!
Why don't they check the clock tower
And keep it as a pet ??
I shud just stop writing now
And wait outside in vain
I'm waiting for my interview
Which shud've started @ 10.

You're my fight

You try and organize yourself,
Try, maintain and reveal
It might just seem to work its way,
But you're somewhere within.

When you feel you've been a giver,
Its just you and you're low
If the taker would understand,
There'd be no sorrow anymore

I've always been a fighter,
Can it always be this way?
I'm trying to tell you something nice
Can you hear?, you're ears away.

With this song, education here again,
I hope this effort, wont go in vain
I'll be a fighter once again,
Forgetting those carved wounds of pain.

Birthday !

This one day I'll overcome my griefs,
This one day I'll love to be just me,
This one day I'll expose all my fears,
This one day I'll smile coz I am me.
This one day I'll sew up my lil heart,
This one day I'll realize I have a part,
This is my day and I'll have all fun,
I'll not stay and hope the others to come,
Yeah I like blue but I'm not pale,
I am strong, this thing is real,
This is my day, the day I was born,
I'll enjoy, let the others learn.

Pride

I'm a happy person
This is the way I'll always be
If ever a moment, comes to seize,
Let it come, I'll let it be

For, its me, the only person to be,
Always happy as I can be
Never and ever you will see,
The part of me that's unhappy

You may hope or even pray to god,
Try and take me to where I don't belong,
I'm a fast learner and you will see,
The happiness growing within me

I'm in control, of me and my mind
Pleasure is something, everywhere I find
I love my freedom, don't get me to bind,
Just in case, you did not know,
This goes to all, I'm one of a kind !!!

Path to Happiness

I would like to draw

A picture of my mind

Analyze to see

the things that I can find

I would grab that thing

Create another dream

I would fulfill that

With joy then I would scream

I was able to make

My own reality

Where the world loved me

I was happy as I can be

I still am an actor

of the world I know

Things I do everyday

The movie is on the flow

Whenever I get sad

Or depression bound

I just change reality

Happiness flows around !!

Human and Humanity

You have it all, but you still want some more

Seeing a beggar, you go to lock your door

What's money's worth, if its just to store

Where is humanity, when you can't help a poor

Is mind at peace when your body is at ease?

Is soul in salvation, when you're always on greed?

Nurture your soul and seed good deeds

Help a needy out and your mind is at peace

You don't have to worry for nothing you've wronged

Satisfaction will grow from goodness you've sowed

All you see is friends and enemy is none

Then you'll see happiness freshly being born !!

Personality Change !

I wish to disappear,

Disappear silently and move along

Like the sun disappears from the horizon

And follows a new destiny

I need to disappear,

Disappear like the black bear

Hibernating away from the surroundings

for peace and longevity

I should disappear

Disappear from this material world

Like Buddha did

In search of a charasmatic knowledge

I will eventually disappear,

Disappear this time for me

Where I get to know the world,

Without it knowing me !!

Give me my Innocence Back !

Its time that I reconnect to my old memories

It's time that I rethink the life that I'm in

It's time to say goodbye present, and turn around

Turn around to those moments, that I lived as a child

Turn around to those selfishless attires,

Turn around to the place, where I'm not pressure bound

Turn around where there's no depression around

Turn around to where I can be me

Where I can be without pressure of life

Where I can learn without saying I have to

Where I can play, without saying its an exercise

And where I can read for interest and not a Diploma

I need my innosecence back !!

Back to live in a moment

Back to smile when I want to

Back to Sleep coz I'm sleepy

Awake not coz I have to !!

I dont need this frustration that may get me to succeed

I dont need this money that might buy me happiness

I dont need this deree, that steals life out of me

I dont need this depression, that promises me greater harmony

Its time that I reconnect to my old memories

It's time that I rethink the life that I'm in

It's time to say goodbye present, and turn around

Turn around to the innoscence and do what in life makes sense !!!

Only I was Yours !!!

You never were my friend
Only I was yours !!
The ways you admired me
Were just mere words!!

Innocent me, I played by rules
When I went down, You let me lose !!
In all your faults, I searched for peace
you took me wrong, your life's at ease !!

At my high times, you're low sometimes,
I carried you along, didnt let you down!!
When low you went, you tried to fall,
I came back running, singing a song!!

A song of prestige, and lifted you up,
Brought you back high, you never went wrong !!!

When I got my turn to check those lows,
I was lookin at you, checkin where you'd go !!
Aww there you are, I can still see you,
Lookin at me .. egoestic Virtue !!

No you never were my friend,
Only I was yours !!
Your words ~ love & faith,
My Carelessness !!

You looked at me .. oh he's up there
And may be he could get me there !!

But now a different time's come ..
I'm down here ... all you do is run !!

You'll see me again, if you fall down ...
And if I go high, you'll see me by!!

But you're never my friend,
Only I was yours !!

I'm not your friend,
And never was yours !!!

उज्यालो

दुनियाँमा ज्योति नभएर के भो ?
यो घरको बत्ती नबलेर के भो ?
दुनियाँको अध्यारो म नै हटाउछु।
मैन्बत्ती बाली जीवन जगाउछु।

एउटा बत्तीले दुनियाँ नजगौला,
आर्को बत्तीको आगो म बन्छु,
धेरै प्रकाश दिन नसके नि,
टाडैबाट म आफुलाई चिनाउछु।

बत्ती नभएनी आज म पड्छु,
जीवन रहस्य राम्ररी बुज्छु,
धेरै कुराको ज्ञान म लिन्छु,
मेरो जीवनलाई सार्थक् बनाउछु।

मेरो अठोटलाई केइले रोक्दैन,
हृदयको ज्योति कहिले निभ्दैन,
बत्ती निभाउ या शिक्षा नदीलाउ,
मेरो पाइलालाई कसैले छेक्दैन।

माया बनिदेउ |

मेरो मन भित्रको माया बनिदेउ,
आँखाको आशु होइन, खुशी छरिदेउ ....
मेरो मन भित्रको माया बनिदेउ |

एकन्तको प्रेम होइन,साथ दीयीदेउ,
मेरो मन भित्रको माया बनिदेउ |
मन्मनै मन्पराउने होइन, आइ भनिदेउ....
मेरो मन भित्रको माया बनिदेउ |
आँखाको आशु होइन, खुशी छरिदेउ ....
मेरो मन भित्रको माया बनिदेउ |

हृदय त्यो खोलिदेउ,
माया गर्छु भनिदेउ
एक्लै नछोडिदेउ,
आइ सँग हिडिदेउ...
मेरो मन भित्रको माया बनिदेउ |

माया मेरी माया मेरी
छाया मेरी छाया मेरी
दाँया मेरी दाँया मेरी
बाँया मेरी बाँया मेरी

माया मेरी माया मेरी
छाया मेरी छाया मेरी
दाँया मेरी दाँया मेरी
बाँया मेरी बाँया मेरी

मेरो मन भित्रको माया बनिदेउ,
आँखाको आशु होइन, खुशी छरिदेउ ....
मेरो मन भित्रको माया बनिदेउ |

Evolutionize

If I was to know
What it feels to be
Left out alone
I'd learn to see
Right through my eyes
What the world would be.

If I was to feel
What life would be
Without love
Then I'd care to give
Sensations deserved
In relationships.

If I was to see
What the world would be
Every where dark
And there's nothing to see
I'd understand Nature
And Eternity.

If I was just born
And happen to see
Nothing but emptiness
Surrounding me
I'd Understand with clarity
What it means to have a family.

If I was to know
What it meant to be
An innocent man
With no tragedy
I'd leave you alone and my fantasy
I'd love the beauty of humanity.

Educate me, Educate the world
Nobody like me, in this world be born
Come back and save the ruined my lord
Bring love and peace, Don’t be absurd
Don't make my last words, just go in vain
Please bring your paradise, Back again.

।।। क्षण ।।।

हावाहरुको त्यो मीठो स्वोरमा,
हाम्रो माया को मधुरता नखोज्नु ।
पंक्षिहरुको त्यो निश्चल मीलनमा,
मेरो हृदयको माया नखोज्नु ।।

भेटिन्न देउता मुर्तिहरुमा,
पाइन्न साथ छाँयाहरुमा ।।

चाहनाको भारी तिमी नबोक्नु,
आँखाको पानी कठोरताले रोक्नु ।
जीवनको तापमा सितलता सँगाल्नु,
बर्षाको रातमा बेछ्यौना अङ्गाल्नु ।।

म तिम्रो साथमा नहुँदाको क्षण,
आफ्नै मायामा सधैंनै रमाउनु ।।

बितेका पललाई सपना बनाउनु,
भत्केको मनमा नयाँ जग बसाल्नु ।
छैन म साथ, न मेरो भरोसा,
खुशी हुनु सधैं मारी त्यो नीरशा ।।

Life is amazing. The more you try to analyze it, the more complications you come across. Why not just wish and hope for it to be granted. I assume my life would be perfect someday. I wish I could find that magic lamp and rub it up. Genie ... are you there ???

If ever I could make a wish
I'd wish I'd never expire
If I'd long for happiness
I'd need a fortune blessed
My heart would still have a flame
Seeing the things i cant obtain
I'd then make a wish yet again
Waiting for the same old vain

If I could never make a wish
I wouldn't be wishing, wasting time
I'd rather find my happiness
In that penny and that dime
If in my heart, I'd see that flame
Its a challenge and not a shame
I'd work hard on my own way
In the end, All sways away.

Initiation

This is my 1st ever consideration in writing a blog and actually i am glad i did it. Almost about half or a quarter decade back I really was a creater, an imaginative writer.
I think it's time again to start that relation, my relation with my inner core. So this is where I start. We'll find out how far my senses will take me this time.